Monday, May 21, 2012

Sexyback. Just kidding.

I'm not dead. Not yet.


I'm back in Blogger, after not blogging for nearly 1 or 2 years wtf.


Just a quick recap of what happened during the time when I'm gone. I am now in my final year, graduating this year (like finally). Didn't really walk around places like how I used to anymore, so expect some changes in this blog. From my last post, the one on KLIMS, got like, countless of comments. I've never received so many comment on ONE SINGLE BLOG POST BEFORE. I even deleted some of them. But the rest, spam or not, I'd just publish them all.


So yea. Things changed. You changed. I changed. Major changes about me will be mostly on my weight. Or how I look now for that matter. Mind you, I was 57kg back then, with the height of 166cm. Now? I'm 43. Underweight? HELL YES.


But so what? I get to eat whatever fuck I want!


To you people who always make comments on how skinny I am now, or how my head looks bigger than my now-smaller body bla bla bla. SCREW YOU. Judgmental or criticizing people like you, were the reason why high school kids nowadays starve themselves, and how young girls now have so low self-esteem, you just did it by just simply calling people "fat". Maybe you should applaud yourselves for that.


But I didn't starve myself. And I am sure as HELL NOT aneroxic forgodssake. I just went on a diet. Don't ask me how I did it, I won't tell.


Let's skip the details of how I lose all the weight. And back on the people who are on my nerves now. Tell you what, making comments about me for being too unhealthy (I'm sorry, I don't remember you being a doctor accessing people's health) or how my head is now too big (what do you want me to do? HEAD REDUCTION SURGERY?!), isn't going to change how you want me to look. Oh, and the girl who drew a picture of a big-head alien on a tissue paper and then waved it in my face saying "This is how you look like, your head is so much bigger than your body HAHAHA!" WTFF?! What are you, 12? I was surprised your dad didn't slap you right there, because if I were him, I would. Just kidding. I won't. Your face is ugly enough just like your heart anyway.




I can really eat. I eat like a horse. Friends who know me, they know that for a fact.


"Oh, she must have WORMS in her stomach. Eat so much, still so skinny, must be worms." Oh bitch please. I'm sorry that I can't be like you, who eats only 2 tablespoons of rice and STILL NOT LOSE A SINGLE WEIGHT. Do a favor for yourself and take a look at yourself first ok? Making fun about my weight, won't make you look smarter, nor lose any of your fats. You need to remember that, because you really sound like a jealous bitch, and I pity you. Btw, since when you have a masters in studying stomachs-and-wormatology? Are you really that insecure about yourself till you have to bring me down along with you? 


One more time. I swear I'll blow.


But pushing aside all this shit thats going on, I feel good. I never felt I looked good in my whole life before. I'm proud of my curves and I'm proud of my face. I was stupid back then when people tell me I was fat. I was stupid enough to even believe them. But we all have done things we are not proud of. At least now I know, after all I've been through, I'm stronger, I'm confident, and I'm sure as hell beautiful.


To all girls out there, don't give in to losers. They just want to see you break, and then be happy themselves. As long as you're healthy, you're good to go. You don't need a supermodel figure or a flawless face to define beauty, and you don't need to join modelling or pageants look pretty. Those are for show (and for pleasure purposes, ifyouknowwhatimean.jpg) and it's honestly getting boring to see. I see photos like that  EVERYDAY on Facebook, each gets like 300+ likes wtf. Be yourself, not what others want to see. Someone out there will love you for being you. 


Remember, you don't need to strip near naked (or show boobies cleavage) just to get more likes on your photo. 


Til then, peace out.


I'm still doing my signature song lyric closing.


"Life's too short to even care at all."
Cough Syrup - Young The Giant

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